About

I have recently relocated back to my hometown of Cincinnati, OH after the painful realization that I could not go on any longer without seeking help for an addiction that had long been beyond my control.

On November 18th, 2019 I started down my personal road to recovery when my brother and parents made the drive up to Columbus, OH to rescue me, my dog, and what was left of my belongings from the chaos that my addiction had become. I was terribly afraid of the changes that I was about to make; It was only a matter of hours before withdrawal symptoms would start and I was on my way to checking into a rehab facility that did not offer a medically assisted detox, meaning I would have no medication beyond simple over-the-counter drugs to mask the terrible symptoms that accompany withdrawal from opiates. But I knew that my time had come; It was time to face my issues with addiction or die trying, like so many others have before me.

I started this blog as a way to express myself and sort of document the process of getting clean after a serious drug addiction. As I get further along in recovery and more involved in the recovery fellowship of my choice, I have started to pay more attention to the traditions of the fellowship to which I belong. Thus, I try not to name the specific fellowship in my posts, as I am not here to advertise for the organization in any way. I am merely here to share my experience and I hope that it might someday help someone who is seeking recovery.

There are several organizations and groups whose purpose is to provide a community to those with substance abuse problems, and I wholeheartedly believe that it is of utmost importance that a person seeking recovery finds the group in which they feel most comfortable. That being said, I have found a home in Narcotic’s Anonymous. N.A. makes no distinction between drugs, be it alcohol or heroin or anything in between; Anyone is welcome to join and you are a member when you say you are. N.A. is a 12-step program and we acknowledge that the program of Alcoholic’s Anonymous provided us with the backbone of our program, the steps. An addict or alcoholic can find recovery in either fellowship and I know several people that attend both, but I have found Narcotic’s Anonymous to be the best fit for me.

I wanted to state to which fellowship I belong because I frequently discuss 12-step program literature and topics, but have chosen to not include the name of the fellowship in the individual posts. It is not up to me to advertise for the fellowship to which I belong, but merely share my experience with it. I thought it important that I disclose this information in case anyone wants to check it out for themselves, but beyond that I simply want to share my recovery with anyone who wishes to read about it.

Finding recovery has been the most important thing to happen to me in my life to this point, and I suspect that it will remain so. I did not live a good life before finding recovery– I was successful in some ways, but failed miserably in most aspects. I found myself with a nearly ruined life and in a state of total mental, spiritual, and emotional bankruptcy due to the disease of addiction. I was a broken person.

Recovery is allowing me to rebuild my life in ways I thought impossible, and I wanted to share my experience with anyone who wishes to read it. So if you are an addict seeking recovery, a loved one of an addict, or someone just interested in the topic for your own reasons, I hope that you will find my experience useful and insightful.